Pls Entertain Me....

2011-01-21T07:11:00.000-08:00

hey peeps
er... long time no post...
nothing much to post about
busy with work nowadays...
so... er... if there's a need
for chinese new year oranges
do come down to boon lay shopping
centre de NTUC...
working there...
ya... so...
long time no post...
nothing much happen...
nobody died...
peaceful...
and lastly...
er...
keyboard warriors? -- FUCK OFF --
pls dun post ads on my chat box..
you guys are irritating...
i dunnoe if people read... but...
just post la...

2010-11-29T19:55:00.001-08:00

FML

2010-11-20T06:31:00.000-08:00

:'(

Burno Mars : grenade

Easy come, easy go
That's just how you live, oh
Take, take, take it all,
But you never give
Should of known you was trouble from the first kiss, Had your eyes wide open -
Why were they open?
Gave you all I had
And you tossed it in the trash
You tossed it in the trash, you did
To give me all your love is all I ever asked, Cause what you don't understand is
I’d catch a grenade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
Throw my hand on a blade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
I’d jump in front of a train for ya (yeah, yeah , yeah)
You know I'd do anything for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah) Oh, oh
I would go through all this pain, Take a bullet straight through my brain,
Yes, I would die for ya baby ; But you won't do the same

No, no, no, no
Black, black, black and blue beat me till I'm numb Tell the devil I said “hey” when you get back to where you're from
Mad woman, bad woman,
That's just what you are, yeah,
You’ll smile in my face then rip the breaks out my car
Gave you all I had
Bruno Mars Grenade lyrics found on http://www.directlyrics.com/bruno-mars-grenade-lyrics.html

And you tossed it in the trash
You tossed it in the trash, yes you did
To give me all your love is all I ever asked Cause what you don't understand is
I’d catch a grenade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
Throw my hand on a blade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
I’d jump in front of a train for ya (yeah, yeah , yeah)
You know I'd do anything for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah) Oh, oh
I would go through all this pain, Take a bullet straight through my brain,
Yes, I would die for ya baby ; But you won't do the same

If my body was on fire, ooh You’ d watch me burn down in flames You said you loved me you're a liar Cause you never, ever, ever did baby...
But darling I’ll still catch a grenade for ya
Throw my hand on a blade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
I’d jump in front of a train for ya (yeah, yeah , yeah)
You know I'd do anything for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah) Oh, oh
I would go through all this pain, Take a bullet straight through my brain,
Yes, I would die for ya baby ; But you won't do the same.
No, you won’t do the same,
You wouldn’t do the same,
Ooh, you’ll never do the same,
No, no, no, no

Never the same agian...

2010-11-19T04:18:00.000-08:00

Came back from
class chalet today...
damn tired...
first day, only slept for
20 minutes?
-.-'''
second day better...
very tired now...

I'm lost...

2010-11-15T04:52:00.000-08:00

Emo...

2010-11-03T16:53:00.001-07:00

All i wan for my birthday is you.

2010-10-25T17:03:00.000-07:00

time...
thoughts...
should i just move on?

2010-10-22T22:05:00.000-07:00

Why...

why everything u say

u wanna leave me...

but at the very end

u end up wanting me

back again?

u make me feel like i am

being played la...

i know i nvr treat you good...

but is that what i should get ?

you gave up... alot of times...

but this time... it really ended...

tears rolled down...

but nothing changed...

love...?

2010-10-12T07:05:00.000-07:00

hiie :)
today was the
graduation ceremony...
had so much fun :)
den played touched rugby
after that had pizza in
canteen... -.-'''
so... when i got home...
my mum bought me a watch!!
so nice!!! ah!!

Thanks mum :)
dun get sick silly girl!
take cares lurh...

2010-10-09T05:00:00.000-07:00

hahas
went to Jurong
Point de Carl's Jr
study today :)
den study study le...
me and jia wei go arcade
play :) den see Samantha
lol... -.-'''
after that wen to mac slack...
at there took out paper
and start drawing tattoos design
hah!
seriously fun...
Jia Wei! dun think too much
slowly talk...

hope it wont happen again...
please do not take this chance for granted...

2010-09-28T18:45:00.000-07:00

sometimes
i find my life
quite meaningless
hahas...
i wonder why...
-.-'''

Locked to the past,
just lost the keys to unlock it....

2010-09-28T01:36:00.000-07:00

Careful by Paramore

I settled down
A twisted up frown
Disguised as a smile, well
You would have never known
I had it all but not what i wanted
'cause hope for me was a place uncharted
And overgrown

You make your way in
I resist you just like this
You can't tell me to feel
The truth never set me free
So i did it myself

You can't be too careful anymore
When all that is waiting for you
Won't come any closer
You've got to reach a little more

Open your eyes like i opened mine
It's only the real world
A life you will never know
Shifting your weight to throw off the pain
Well you can ignore it
But only for so long

You look like i did
You resist me just like this
You can't tell me to heal
And it hurts remembering how it felt to shut down

You can't be too careful anymore
When all that is waiting for you
Won't come any closer
You've got to reach a little more

The truth never set me free
The truth never set me free
The truth never set me free
So i'll do it myself

You can't be too careful anymore
When all that is waiting for you
Won't come any closer
You've got to reach out
You can't be too careful anymore
When all that is waiting for you
Won't come any closer
You've got to reach out more

More
More
More
More, more

sibei sian... first time that i miss sch...

2010-09-25T04:11:00.000-07:00

hiie...
er... sick....
so... er... omg...
having chicken pox...
is like... chicken pox and
fever at the same time...
never feel SOOO... good...
-.-'''
haiz... until
next thurs den going
back to school....
sian

Siansation...
wrong time to be sick...
seriously....

2010-09-18T07:14:00.000-07:00

hahas
today went to
china town eat steam
boat haha! weets!!!
den very full...
-.-'''
now posting...
nthing to post liao...
i guess...

Let me be your wings,
i will always be attached to you,
where ever you go... i will
be there for you!!!
luvzxc

2010-09-15T03:00:00.000-07:00

it's over...
we have come to the final chapter
The End

2010-09-15T02:32:00.000-07:00

kami...
take me away
relief me from this pain
but in the very end
u gave me the pain
wtf?

i am tired... please... stop it...

2010-09-08T01:42:00.000-07:00

hmm....
my relative from
Norway just reached
Singapore yesterday...
haven met them yet...
but looking forward
:)
sian...
with the clock
ticking away...
every sec is nearer
to o's liao...

i wan you... silly gurl :)

2010-09-04T04:37:00.000-07:00

hmm...
nothing much to
post... err....
had steam boat for
lunch today... :)
yesterday played basketball
hurt my last toe... now the
nail inside got blood clot
-.- ''' anyways still
play basketball today!
hmm... life still normal today
nvr quarrel with my mum...
a peaceful day...

Silly gurl , i love you!

2010-09-03T00:08:00.000-07:00

O's
is coming...
every tick is a second
nearer to o level...
i guess i am still
trying to get into the mood
of studying...
sometimes i don't understand why
is like i have been studying since
i was young... but i still hate it
i wonder why...
trying to get back on track...
hope i can do it...

i wasn't meant for you...

2010-08-27T20:23:00.000-07:00

Prefect by Hedley

Falling a thousand feet per second
You still take me by surprise
I just know we can't be over
I can see it in your eyes
Making every kind of silence
Takes a lot to realize
It's worse to finish than to start all over
And never let it lie
And as long as I can feel you holding on
I won't fall
Even if you said I was wrong

I'm not perfect
But I keep trying
Cause that's what I said
I would do from the start
I'm not alive if I'm lonely
So please don't leave
Was it something I said
Or just my personality

Making every kind of silence
It takes a lot to realize
It's worse to finish than to start all over
And never let it lie
And as long as I can feel you holding on
I won't fall
Even if you said I was wrong

I know that I'm not perfect
But I keep trying
Cause that's what I said
I would do from the start
I'm not alive if I'm lonely
So please don't leave
Was it something I said
Or just my personality

When you're caught in a lie
And you've got nothing to hide
When you've got nowhere to run
And you've got nothing inside
It tears right through me
You thought that you knew me
You thought that you knew

I'm not perfect
But I keep trying
Cause that's what I said
I would do from the start
I'm not alive if I'm lonely
So please don't leave
Was it something I said
Or just my personality

I'm not perfect
But I keep trying
Cause that's what I said
I would do from the start
I'm not alive if I'm lonely
So please don't leave
Was it something I said
Or just my, just my
Self, just myself
Myself, just myself

I'm not perfect
But I keep trying

2010-08-25T23:17:00.000-07:00

Secrets by OneRepulbic

I need another story
Something to get off my chest
My life gets kinda boring
Need something that I can confess

Til’ all my sleeves are stained red
From all the truth that I’ve said
Come by it honestly I swear
Thought you saw me wink, no
I’ve been on the brink, so

Tell me what you want to hear
Something that were like those years
Sick of all the insincere
So I’m gonna give all my secrets away
This time, don’t need another perfect line
Don’t care if critics never jump in line
I’m gonna give all my secrets away

My god, amazing how we got this far
It’s like we’re chasing all those stars
Who’s driving shiny big black cars

And everyday I see the news
All the problems that we could solve
And when a situation rises
Just write it into an album
Singing straight, too cold
I don’t really like my flow, no, so

Tell me what you want to hear
Something that were like those years
Sick of all the insincere
So I’m gonna give all my secrets away
This time, don’t need another perfect line
Don’t care if critics never jump in line
I’m gonna give all my secrets away

Oh, got no reason, got not shame
Got no family I can blame
Just don’t let me disappear
I’mma tell you everything

So tell me what you want to hear
Something that were like those years
Sick of all the insincere
So I’m gonna give all my secrets away
This time, don’t need another perfect line
Don’t care if critics never jump in line
I’m gonna give all my secrets away

So tell me what you want to hear
Something that were like those years
Sick of all the insincere
So I’m gonna give all my secrets away
This time, don’t need another perfect line
Don’t care if critics never jump in line
I’m gonna give all my secrets away
All my secrets away, All my secrets away

2010-08-24T22:45:00.000-07:00

haiz...
just fucking hate
my life...
kill me instead
stop doing all these
things to make me suffer...
complain complain to
my mum... just make a little
mistake... also wan complain...
i got limit one...
i will get angry one...
fuck you...

i guess one day, all this sadness will
turn into anger... that's when all of you fuckers
shall perish!

2010-08-07T08:44:00.000-07:00

today...
nothing much...
er... life still goes on...
now having a little
headache....

i miss you...

2010-07-29T04:23:00.000-07:00

haiz...
yesterday quarrel
with my mum...actually
is my mum scold me la...
but i never say a thing...
haiz....
all i wanted is your love
and support... but all u scold me
is that i dont need to study... then
confirm will go ITE... haiz...
i guess it doesn't matter anymore
every time i look out from my window
i feel like jumping... but i just cant do it...
haiz... i guess maybe someday
i will just jump...
one day...

Was i curse not to be loved?
why...?

here's a song...

Waking up I see that everything is ok
The first time in my life and now it's so great
Slowing down I look around and I am so amazed
I think about the little things that make life great
I wouldn't change a thing about it
This is the best feeling

[Chorus]
This innocence is brilliant
I hope that it will stay
This moment is perfect
Please don't go away
I need you now
And I'll hold on to it
Don't you let it pass you by

I found a place so safe, not a single tear
The first time in my life and now it's so clear
Feel calm, I belong, I'm so happy here
It's so strong and now I let myself be sincere
I wouldn't change a thing about it
This is the best feeling

[Chorus]

It's a state of bliss, you think you're dreaming
It's the happiness inside that you're feeling
It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry

It's a state of bliss, you think you're dreaming
It's the happiness inside that you're feeling
It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry

It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry

This innocence is brilliant, It Makes you want to cry
This innocence is brilliance Please don't go away
Cause I need you now
And I'll hold on to it, Don't you let it pass you by

[Chorus]

2010-07-26T06:01:00.000-07:00

Recently
feel like wanting
to slash even more...
nth really happened but
like getting addicted
hahas... i wonder
why...

Feeling so empty... haiz....

2010-07-17T08:25:00.000-07:00

Went
out today with
pri school friends
... went to arena :P
my first time?
-.-
den played played
then went back my home here
played basketball after that
go home... thanks everyone today
i had alot of fun!!
thanks

Waiting for you...

2010-07-14T06:03:00.001-07:00

Sometimes
i just get so sick of life
people puts high hopes on me
but i just don't see wad so
good i am?

sometimes
things that i wan to forget
will always end up come crashing
back into me.... why?
such pain....

sometimes
i feel so dead inside me
as i wonder wad am i studying for?
future? life? me?
since we are going to die
mind as well just relax...
wads all the tension for?

Sometimes... perhaps...

2010-07-12T03:14:00.000-07:00

Just reached
home... den vomited...
dont know why....
suddenly very sad...
emo....
dont know why...

I love you...

2010-07-10T04:10:00.000-07:00

Hmm...
suddenly got the urge to post...
O levels coming...
but i just don't have the motivation
to like go study for o's....
maybe is because i gotta feeling that
i not going to live long... hahas
anyways... just don't have the urgency
to study for o's...

just finish reading mei's
post....
haiz.... this girl har....
hope she will stop slashing herself...
hope she will stop thinking about her ex...
hope she will get better...
hope that when she see this post she will do wad i wish she
wont do.....

hmm...
just hope something will happen
so i will like have the motivation to do o's
i wonder if i am REALLY going to die early...
die better.... everything end...
no problem....

Sometimes you don't have to find trouble,
cause trouble always knocks on your door.....

2010-07-04T01:53:00.000-07:00

Finally
com is fixed....
as though my life just came
back to life!!!
hahas

Woohoo!! its back

2010-06-18T08:19:00.000-07:00

heard this song
and make remember things...
past... love....
er... this song is Broken by Sezairi sezaili
enjoy...haiz... past...

Lyrics:
VERSE 1:
Dropped off your keys last night,
The front door still unpainted.
You were polite like ice,
I, once could met it.
You took our pictures down,
And you left them on the ground
Its like you wiped all the memories,
Of what we used to be...
You and me, before it all crashed down.

CHORUS:
And I know I never told you,
That I love you,
Now its all too late.
And I don't know how to hold you,
But I want to,
I don't want to leave this way.
All I know,
Is broken.

VERSE 2:
I heard your voice break, when you said,
"well I hope you're happy".
Nothin' to say, I'll stare, straight into my coffee.
Then the conversation changed,
How we talked around the blame,
And the pain of losing.
All of the good times lost,
When it all crashed down.

CHORUS:
And I know I never told you,
That I love you,
Now its all too late.
And I don't know how to hold you,
But I want to,
I don't want to leave this way.
All I know...
Is broken.

BRIDGE:
Well I'm here if you need me,
I know you don't believe me.
well I'm so sorry,
For all the pain I've caused.
Ho-oohhhhh...

CHORUS :
And I know I never told you,
That I love you,
Now its all too late.
And I don't know how to hold you,
But I want to,
I don't want to leave this way.
All I know...
Is broken.

Ho-oh...

Its all too late... its broken...

2010-06-17T20:09:00.000-07:00

i always believe that people have choices...able to chose... but i guess from small we all have been taken away this freedom to chose....wad we wan to eat... wad we wan to do... and i guess this make me wad i am today... unable to decide...dont know wad i wan to be....

haiz...

2010-06-12T03:49:00.000-07:00

hiie...
er... jaclyn-mei wan me post
de... so i post lorh...
nth much... went out with
parents... bought a Heineken
sleeves shirt... :)
haiz.... sian....
i just sad...
sad...

Why u doubt me?

2010-06-05T06:30:00.001-07:00

found this funny pic
enjoy :P

2010-06-05T05:45:00.000-07:00

hey..hey...
long time nvr post liao...
hmm... today got Enmazing race
I team leader...
then got Zong sheng , Kah shin ,
Gladys and jolin--v8 de
and lastly our facilitator Kuan hao
den we start at city square mall
then got 5 station... then first two station
nothing much....
den at the 3rd station
it is at ngee ann poly
i go for the flying fox....
not bad la...
den when i got down this person
in charge ask me... u scared?
then i was like LOL?
den when we coming out...
there got people in charge of that station
den got this sec 2 guy suddenly talk to jolin
he said " hey babe! wanna go for a dinner tonight?"
then i was like WTF?
then i like say... wad the fuck?
den he like parrot like that...
lol... den i dun care...
after that we rest for awhile
got girls playing basketball at the court there
den i kena sabo by kuan hao and zong sheng...
ask me to go ask... but i got go ask la
then we play play basketball until time going to
finish then we go back to the end point lor....
ah.... damn fun today
thanks Kuan hao :P

Sian... i guess u dont really care?

2010-05-23T06:56:00.001-07:00

haiz...
it will never be
the same again...
i am sorry...
what esle should i do?
what u wan me to do?
i wan to know...

i love you

2010-05-18T07:50:00.000-07:00

Billionaire
by Travie McCoy ft. Burno Mars

Bruno Mars
I wanna be a billionaire so frickin bad
Buy all of the things I never had
I wanna be on the cover of Forbes Magazine
Smiling next to Oprah and the Queen

Oh every time I close my eyes
I see my name in shining lights, yeaaah
A different city every night oh I swear
The world better prepare for when I’m a billionaire

Travie McCoy
Yeah I would have a show like Oprah
I would be the host of
Everyday Christmas give Travie a wish list
I’d probably pull an Angelina and Brad Pitt
and adopt a bunch of babies that ain’t never had sh!t
Give away a few Mercedes like here lady have this
And last but not least grant somebody their last wish
It's been a couple months since I’ve single so
You can call me Travie Claus minus the ho-ho
Get it, I’d probably visit where Katrina hit
And damn sure do a lot more than FEMA did
Yeah can’t forget about me stupid
Everywhere I go Imma have my own theme music

Bruno Mars
Oh every time I close my eyes
I see my name in shining lights
A different city every night oh I swear
The world better prepare for when I’m a billionaire
(oooh ooh) when I’m a Billionaire
(oooh ooooh)

Travie McCoy
I’ll be playing basketball with the President
Dunking on his delegates
Senator ... his political etiquette
Toss a couple milli in the air just for the heck of it
But keep the fives, twenty's ...completely separate

And yeah I’ll be in a whole new tax bracket
We in recession but let me take a crack at it
I’ll probably take whatever left and just split it up
So everybody that I love can have a couple bucks
And not a single tummy around me
Would know what hungry was
Eating good sleeping soundly
I know we all have a similar dream
Go in your pocket pull out your wallet
And put it in the air and sing

Bruno Mars
I wanna be a billionaire so frickin bad (so bad)
Buy all of the things I never had
I wanna be on the cover of Forbes Magazine
Smiling next to Oprah and the Queen

Oh every time I close my eyes
I see my name in shining lights
A different city every night oh I swear
The world better prepare for when I’m a billionaire
(oooh ooh sing it) when I’m a Billionaire
(oooh ooooh)

I wanna be a billionaire so frickin bad

Enjoy...

2010-05-08T02:23:00.000-07:00

I am tired...
of life... but at least
i still have you...
i love you

I love you...

2010-04-29T08:33:00.000-07:00

Its easy to forgive,
But its never easy to forget....
Yet all i can do is try to forget....

2010-04-23T23:01:00.000-07:00

Feel like
slapping ur face...
but its ok...
since its over...
sorry for crying out loud
sorry for letting u know my hard times
sorry for sharing my thought with u
sorry for ever wanting u back
sorry for being with u
so is that wad u wanted?
apologizing?

Life will nvr be the same again

2010-04-23T09:36:00.000-07:00

Hey...
its not that i
dont dare to say
and look so care free
cause wad i believe is
that wads done is done
and wads over is over
nth will change ...
there are more things
for me to care about and more
things for me to worry about,
i have a mum who is sick
who is now having a stomach cancer
i have a person waiting for me
close by me....... i have my family members
worrying about me....and here i am
trying to not let them worry....
and all u write and say was looking carefree
please...
i nvr wanted to have a broken
family ... wad i can chose meh?
i dont need all of u to
pity me... say i always emo...
really... i am tired of all this...

For Sheralin...
the last thing i wan to say is...
i know is my fault... even if u wanted to
push the blame to me, i have nothing to say bout it
but why do u have to lie?
if u think that wad u have done
is worth it... then i have nth to say

And for the one i hurt most...
i rather u mistook me now...and be happier for
another day then trying to explain to u that all this was
a misunderstanding...but of course i was at
fault too... i just hope to see that smile on ur face
every single day and that would make me feel
better...

Lastly...
my friends , i love you :)
thanks for all the things
u have done.... is not
as if i am going to die or wad
but thanks... :)

When everything comes to an end,
there will be new beginning

2010-04-21T03:58:00.000-07:00

Thought of giving
u a surprise... but instead
u look disappointed...

2010-04-21T03:49:00.000-07:00

Firstly
i nvr wanted to
start this conversation
but since i started ...
it also ended...
u say i despo...
i agreed... but i nvr
lied... but u did?
wads the point in
telling me that u sad?
u wan me to an wei ni?
haiz... i say i disappointed...
u say i despo...u say is all my fault...
u dun know where u have gone wrong?
At least , i know my mistake...

Look innocent...?
haha!!
u are fooled !!
4 years of being your toy
and now then i realized that...

2010-04-17T07:09:00.000-07:00

Fk...
feel so hurt...
my mum...
just told her that i
was angry about
the class tee-shirt
thingy den she
told me that i was
not going to do anything
successful...
cause i have no patience
i dont get it....
everything i do ...
wheater is it for someone
or not... it will like always
be like a piece of paper...
throwing it away like u wan to...
why would i wan to do something
when the things i do wont
be appreciated?
i guess... i am always a fool
to be toyed around with...
thank u guys....
so much...

Feel so stress... so sad...
but at least now i have got u

2010-04-13T19:33:00.000-07:00

Sort
of a little sick
today...
phone spoil so
alarm did went on...
woke up late so nvr go
sch... jus
feel lonely...
as usual ...
jus
' haiz... '

Dont sad liao la...

2010-04-13T08:27:00.000-07:00

Nothing
much today...
jus
" HIAZ.... "

Life is always wad is wish it was....

2010-04-12T04:22:00.000-07:00

haiz...
always being played
around by people...
just wad the hell is wrong
with my life...
slashed myself...
just seem more useless

Useless... slashing...

2010-04-10T22:50:00.000-07:00

Feel
so down...
dunnoe wan to
text u anot...
afraid that u will sad..
den slash urself...
but i was told...
if i dont text u
u will feel worse...
haiz...
i really wish to text u
i am worried...
fuck me up...

Can anyone help me?...
guess not...

2010-04-10T07:25:00.000-07:00

If ur
life was like a
movie... i definitely
will delete the part
where i exists...
den all this would
end.. wouldn't it?

Pls stop slashing urself, will u ...
i'm worried...

2010-04-10T07:20:00.000-07:00

Nothing
much to post...
i wanted to text u...
but i am afraid...
i guess... that's the
best thing for you...

Inner madness... Silent cries...
Deep cuts...

2010-04-09T08:01:00.000-07:00

Perhaps
life would be better for
you if i didn't exist in ur life...
i was a joker... joking around ...
with friends... and one day
God played a prank on me
and he said it was all a joke...
haiz... i have played with fire...
and burned myself... and it
hurts alot.... it kills me deep
down... burning away ME slowly and
If God were to erase my
memories ... the last thing
he cant erase will be u in my mind..
but all this typing above makes me sick...
cause its over...

Playing with fire... its HURTS!!
but its all over... Hopes?
Or shall i say NO HOPE!!

2010-04-05T03:11:00.000-07:00

Asking
me to ignore was the
most hurting thing
i will do... its like the knives
in my heart went down deeper
its hurts a lot
but since u are happier
like this... den its ok...

Haiz.... if that make u happier then so be it

2010-04-02T08:53:00.000-07:00

i think
is should be the time to
let go... memories...
him...her...wadever...
its finally time?
every time i looked
at u ... u smile at
me as though i have
done nothing wrong
to u ... i dont see the smile
that u use to have...
i hurt u too much...

wad was i thinking anyway...?

2010-03-27T10:02:00.000-07:00

hmm...
all of a sudden
MIA like that...
maybe i think too
much...or izit that
u will not be there anymore...

thinking too much... nth much no worries!!

2010-03-27T05:37:00.001-07:00

sentence of the day!!

Sometimes you put walls up not to keep people out,
but to see who cares enough to break them down

2010-03-26T01:48:00.001-07:00

Lying
on bed , trying to
fall asleep... lots of
things went my mind
like ... wad do i live for...
and the thing is... i dont
even know wad i am
going to be... wad i wan to be
in the future....
people once told me
'hey Samuel! u gonna do great
things when u grow up ,i believe u can!'
and the worst part is i
dont believe i can...
cause i have no dreams..
no wants...and i am
no decision maker...and
remember all this year wad i have done...
it seems that i have wasted my time...
it seems that life is all mess up
and staring at the ceiling
makes me wonder is there
any future for me?...
haiz.... wads even me?
ever thought of wad are we living for?

As i fall into the wonderland...thoughts began
to fade away.... and the next thing is
why am i thinking about... hahas
i am a fool , am i?

2010-03-24T02:47:00.000-07:00

Happy birthday
hope u like my present...
didn't got anything special..
smile always..

Happy birthday...smile always!

2010-03-21T03:03:00.000-07:00

Wads
being myself...
give it a thought...
ah ha!
being emo....
hahas....?
In school, dont seem to be
myself?

Being myself... pls i dont even understand myself
don't even know wad i wan....

2010-03-21T02:35:00.000-07:00

Raining now
will it be sunny again..?
or will it be you , holding
an umbrella sheltering me?
so what will i chose?
or...do i have a choice?

It will be always raining deep down...

2010-03-19T07:34:00.000-07:00

Dinner
went to Taman Jurong
eat... went pass her house...
my heart stop for a moment
as if i lost my sense....
memories burst right
into my mind...
didn't know why....
home..
revision....done lerh...
mum nagged...she just wont
trust me in my studies...
don't understand...
i am 16 this year right?
am i ?

Memories... not trusted again...
never understand why...

2010-03-16T07:17:00.000-07:00

Desperate...?
Just need someone to
fill the emptiness
of my heart ,
Just need someone to
fill up the empty
mind of mine ,
Just need someone to
pull out the knifes
on my heart...

Just desperate... too desperate !!
i guess...?

2010-03-15T20:34:00.000-07:00

Holidays?..
Worst thing ever....
lonely sia.... dunnoe wad
to do ... also cannot go out
haiz... sian

So empty inside...listen to my empty heart...

2010-03-14T08:13:00.000-07:00

haiz...
damn it .. no
one trusts me now..
even my mum...
wad the hell is wrong
my heart aches...

Felt a knife in my heart... i am not trusted
anymore... i feel so hurt.... deep pain...

2010-03-14T03:42:00.000-07:00

Love
is like a show...
there will be climax..
and there will be a
time where it ends...
but... all this words..
seems so unreal...so
not true...doesn't it?

Deep loneliness ... no show but love?

2010-03-13T06:42:00.000-08:00

Stayed home
almost the whole
day.... night went out
to bugis with mum & her bf
den went home...

Felt so empty...all alone...
silent cries...

2010-03-12T20:20:00.000-08:00

be friends?
i am not sure myself...
still i cant forgive myself...
wad to do?...

No more cries , but screams....
just hate myself...

2010-03-12T08:08:00.000-08:00

Its over...
When things end,
there will be a new start...
will there...?

Deep down... listen to my silent cries....

2010-03-06T04:55:00.000-08:00

today..
nothing much
wake up ...den at
around 2 plus
went to play basketball...
den at around evening
went to eat steamboat
at chinatown there..
the place not very nice
but the food not bad...
:P
then came back use com...

sorry baby....

2010-02-26T07:28:00.000-08:00

Today
hahas got back
my phone liao
woohoo....
den after school went to
KFC eat with jia wei
den j,wei suddenly
say that something
bad going to happen ...
den the food he order
come out wad he dun wan ...?
lol
hahas
den went back home...
play basketball outside
revision...
online....
Argh next week got alot
of commmon test die !!!!!

2010-02-20T21:01:00.000-08:00

Yesterday
at nite went to
my cousin's house eat
eat liao went to sing karaOk
at her room
i just cant keep up
with the key ....
den chat with Karen online....
she sounded sad...
cheer up baby dun sad !!
den took photos...
went home.....

Baby dun be sad anymore cheer up !!

2010-02-19T06:30:00.000-08:00

Today
nothing much...
after school go play ball
for a while ... went late for
chinese extra lesson...
den text Karen ...
played baskteball...
den sit by the side
wacth Karen having CCA
hahas ...
den she left with friends....
went home alone...
nth much....

Miss you so much ...♥

2010-02-16T00:11:00.001-08:00

Yesterday
after finding baby
went jurong point den
we go tke nail print...
enjoy this pics
anyways dun know y i look
like girl in the photo...?

Cant take my mind off you...

2010-02-15T05:53:00.000-08:00

Today
morning went to
aunt's house ... then saw
mrs tan.... after that
went to take 240
to baby's home...
met up with her and her sis
and her friend...
went with them to eat...
cause baby nvr eat ...
must eat more baby !!
hahas
den went to her home...
we sat together...
chat chat ...
then i say i tired..
i laid my head on her
shoulder den she say she
tired den she lay her
head on my shoulder
hahas
den draw a pic of
baby and her sis...
gave her ...
baby happy , i also happy...
den 4+ baby brought me to
bus stop ...
wan to hug her before i go
but i shy ... so nvr got the chance
den go ... off to aunt house again
after that me and cousins
went to jp ...
ate Carl's Jr -- expensive
but not bad ...
den went back to grandpa
house ... nth to do ...
den came back ...
now waiting for baby to online.

I just cant take my eyes off you

2010-02-12T20:40:00.000-08:00

Yesterday
woke up ... did
house work then
go to jp meet karen
den went onto bus
30 went to lakeside pri
she say she wan to
go back school find teacher
so i accompany her....
after that we slack
around her home....
talk talk...
den she went back to her
pri school find her
friends...then i go find
my Mei <>
and jevious ...
walk from taman jurong
back to jurong west
then slack slack
went home... den eat dinner
tex text with Karen
den at nite cant sleep
12+ like that went to play basketball
alone....after that went home den sleep...

I LOVE YOU , KAREN

2010-02-11T07:05:00.000-08:00

Today
got 2 test ... bio
and SS ... after went
to take phone with karen
den she go for cca
i go for extra lesson...
after that help jin kai
do smth...
den came home
text text with karen...
done revision...
now using com

我爱你，我放不开你！

2010-02-06T08:07:00.000-08:00

Today ,
went out with Jervious
and freinds !!
ahahs
den went to
jurong lake park...
den went to play basketball
den went home use com ...
nth much ....
~just wondering~

I wrote a song , its was meant for you.....
would you sing along with me?

2010-02-05T05:26:00.000-08:00

today...nth
much ... after school
when to meet WeiWei
hahs
den we went to
play basketbal for a while
den went to chinese
remedial late hahas....
den after that went to play
basketball alone....
came back do revision
den wanted to use computer...
but den mum call me do this do that...
i nvr say anything la but
she den scold scold
as if i let down the whole world...
she also can scold me for
just no reading newspaper
also scold me cause i almost
hit her plant .....fk
i not even worth a plant's life
i really begin to hate
this home....
maybe u can say i am too...
wadever it is ...
u all can say there is more
ppl out there worser
wadever.....
i just hate this home ...
incomplete.....
dunnoe wad to do
~haiz~

2010-01-30T03:19:00.000-08:00

today went
to malaysia , eat
soul garden
not bad....and cheaper than
singapore one den
go buy clothes and shoe
hahas
weehoo shiok sia
somemore got gals see
hehe
tired...
I WAN A EAR PIERCING

2010-01-29T17:40:00.000-08:00

Yesterday
after school stayed
back do homewrk.....den
played basketball...
den got the volleyball
coach , he last time basket
ball team one....
so i played with him
we bet if he lose he
treat me drink den i won him
~hahah~
den the school team basketball
bet with him also
some lose some won.....
anyways come back from school
tired....then nite
i do revision......
den computer....sleep
I WAN A EAR PIERCING

2010-01-27T04:27:00.000-08:00

Today stayed
back after sch...den when to jp
bought friendship band
~hahas~
lol...anyways saw gladys....
she dun even remember me
damn it ... hahas...
den went back to sch play bb
den came home...
mum not home today hahahs
anyways
I WAN A EAR PIERCE

2010-01-23T08:31:00.000-08:00

Today morning,
when to Malaysia, Johro
after that i was going to go
to the city square but close
cause the sultan of johro died
this morning.......haiz...
den came home ...
played basketball....den
watch the movie
-The Fourth Kind-
and makes me think
twice about aliens......
i dunnoe about wad u think
but u must watch the movie...
just wonder out in the stars...
makes me wonder

2010-01-16T08:06:00.000-08:00

hi er...
went to malaysia
today...then bought shoes
~yesh~
one for sch and one for
going out wear one
total about 200+ RM
then i saw alot of
guys in malaysia
have ear pierce......
i wan one...again...
i have one but
my mum wont allow so
close liao.....haiz...
~I WAN A EAR PIERCING~

2010-01-03T02:01:00.000-08:00

Changed my
blog skin...er...pls
tagged and hope u enjoy
^^

2009-12-29T19:23:00.000-08:00

Just cut my hair...
a little sad lorh
cause waited for so long then
very nice very long one...
haiz
--Dead and Gone--

2009-12-25T18:37:00.000-08:00

me and my cousins

we were playing ...the ....wadever it is called
anyways.....dotz...

i did a heart shape
cool?

my uncle

my cousin and my mum

me and my cousin

same thing...

my cousins....thats my baby
cousin ... cute?

me and her again...

my cousins....

me and my cousin
playing billard hahas

same thing....

Yesterday , christmas
when to my uncle's resturant have
bbq...and we have also made a video...
althought it has no link
to chirstmas...but enjoy
^^ hope u all like it
hahahs

2009-12-14T05:09:00.000-08:00

Rokudo Mokuro

Hibari Kyoya

Sasagawa Ryohei

Lambo

Yamamoto Takeshi

Gokudera Hayato

Sawada Tsunyoshi

i found these
pictures cute it is
from a anime--------
Katekyo hitman reborn
^^'''

2009-12-12T02:37:00.001-08:00

12 dec , 6.37 pm

just watch
finish hot shot
wee hoo damn nice
i like it very much
^^'''

2009-11-15T05:09:00.001-08:00

Yestersay is my b'day!!
all this are my b'day pics...
enjoy hahas and
thanks for all those that have come
for my b'day party
and all those present u gave me....
thanks everyone.......
i remember my 15th birthday
thanks

2009-11-09T02:10:00.000-08:00

09 nov, 6.12pm

today kenna scold
by teacher cause nvr hand
in homewrk...lol sia
haiz like that nvm
still call my mother
fked up sia..
damn her... sian la
today....

2009-11-04T01:49:00.000-08:00

04 nov , 5.49pm

i just lost my
cup of tea .... hate to
say it but its
life ...

2009-10-30T21:16:00.000-07:00

31 Oct , 12.17 pm

i really like you,
but i afraid i confess
then friend also cannot be liao
u make me go crazy , u make
me love u , but i cant reach u
help

2009-10-26T01:48:00.000-07:00

October 26 , 4.49pm

today ....
wake up use com...
then tok to clarissa then
watch anime....untill now..
whole day...feel
so empty ,
wad else can i do?
u all said something ...and
given me a little hope..
but then i feel so empty now..still
wad can i do?

2009-10-17T07:13:00.000-07:00

Sat 17 oct ,

Today go to malaysia
eat...at kelong....the food
there not bad....
the feeling there very
relax....then after that gone
to city square .....
buy ps2 games.......
then look at clothes...
bags...blah blah.......
come back....
bored
now stress
after exams ...stress
-nth to do, dunnoe wad to do-
-.-'''
lol help me i very bored
lonely

2009-09-23T01:23:00.000-07:00

this video god damn ****
sia...must see!!!!
http://singaporeseen.stomp.com.sg/stomp/sgseen/what_bugs_me/256116/can_justice_be_done_for_malaysian_girl.html
pls copy and paste to watch
must see...
^^

2009-09-22T00:33:00.000-07:00

pls go watch
this video-----
http://singaporeseen.stomp.com.sg/stomp/sgseen/this_urban_jungle/250490/no_sharks_fin_soup_so_hk_lady_goes_hysterical.html
pls copy paste to watch this lady got damn fuck up!!
^^lol^^

2009-09-20T23:51:00.000-07:00

12 sept 09

last three days went

to malaysia carmerlion high

land...i stayed at the strawberry

hill resort..there damn cold, colder then

genting ... went there reach there at about

8pm + like that then eat steamboat

at a restaurant damn nice cause the

weather cold and the steamboat hot

eat liao wont sweat hahahs then

go back hotel then bath..blah

nights out at 12pm like that

then next day
went to straw berry farm

the straw berry sweet sia

niceee!!

then went to the mountain

then pass through a tea farm god damn

big lor...then reach the top

v.cold then wak up the mountain

take pic pic...

then come down started to rain,,,

come down hill
sleep during the way down

.....

wake up reach a fast food

resturant eat eat... then i go play computer until

7pm then eat steam

boat again

shoik ah!!!!

then go to night market

a lot of ppl !!!

then shop shop

then go back ...

nights out at 11pm

then next day come back to singapore!!

^^ fun must go again^^

got more pic ^^ but no time up load..

2009-09-12T10:01:00.000-07:00

12/09/2009

Today got concert at Agape,
i back stage crew!!!....but in the end
i was taken to the lounge to help out
with the food...but it was fun
everything turn out rite...
after that i went to put the guitars
back cause got guitar show...
so put put....blah blah
then bought dinner.....
eat eat eat...
then bring friend home...
girl lor so must
be gentleman mah
then came home
so tired.........
it was fun today thanks everyone!!

2009-09-05T07:21:00.000-07:00

Today evening when to jurong point den eat
new york new york ...damn nice but a little expensive
we called a 30+ dollars meal share by 3 person.......
we eat until very full sia shoik !! hahahs must try
next time i wan try the 32+ burger damn big sia!!!

2009-08-29T09:54:00.000-07:00

August 30 , 12.55am

today gone to malaysia,
eat , shop , eat , shop..nth much
i saw a bag very nice but
the bag textile no very
good like going ripe any
time...then came home play
computer until now...
feel like mei ren yao like that
hahahs

2009-08-14T21:00:00.000-07:00

why everytime my mother want to scold me , especially when
i am studying? 13 august 09 she saw me using handphone while i was
studying . tgot reson one lor...she nvr listen she dont even wan to
reason was i was helping leeling answer chem question . Then she also
scold me that a person who is concentrated on revision no need a break
no need a drink no need go toliet?? wad crap sia? wad that? For this
whole week she had been scolding me for like a small thing.........
pls i am tired of this ... really tired ...feel like i should have
not been in this world but i cant hate my mother cause i only got her
wad can i do? i am tired really tried of this quarraling everyday ...