Saturday, March 27, 2010' 10:02 AM
hmm...
all of a sudden
MIA like that...
maybe i think too
much...or izit that
u will not be there anymore...
thinking too much... nth much no worries!!
sentence of the day!!
Sometimes you put walls up not to keep people out,
but to see who cares enough to break them down
Friday, March 26, 2010' 1:48 AM
Lying
on bed , trying to
fall asleep... lots of
things went my mind
like ... wad do i live for...
and the thing is... i dont
even know wad i am
going to be... wad i wan to be
in the future....
people once told me
'hey Samuel! u gonna do great
things when u grow up ,i believe u can!'
and the worst part is i
dont believe i can...
cause i have no dreams..
no wants...and i am
no decision maker...and
remember all this year wad i have done...
it seems that i have wasted my time...
it seems that life is all mess up
and staring at the ceiling
makes me wonder is there
any future for me?...
haiz.... wads even me?
ever thought of wad are we living for?
As i fall into the wonderland...thoughts began
to fade away.... and the next thing is
why am i thinking about... hahas
i am a fool , am i?
Wednesday, March 24, 2010' 2:47 AM
Happy birthday
hope u like my present...
didn't got anything special..
smile always..
Happy birthday...smile always!
Sunday, March 21, 2010' 3:03 AM
Wads
being myself...
give it a thought...
ah ha!
being emo....
hahas....?
In school, dont seem to be
myself?
Being myself... pls i dont even understand myself
don't even know wad i wan....
Raining now
will it be sunny again..?
or will it be you , holding
an umbrella sheltering me?
so what will i chose?
or...do i have a choice?
It will be always raining deep down...
Friday, March 19, 2010' 7:34 AM
Dinner
went to Taman Jurong
eat... went pass her house...
my heart stop for a moment
as if i lost my sense....
memories burst right
into my mind...
didn't know why....
home..
revision....done lerh...
mum nagged...she just wont
trust me in my studies...
don't understand...
i am 16 this year right?
am i ?
Memories... not trusted again...
never understand why...
Tuesday, March 16, 2010' 7:17 AM
Desperate...?
Just need someone to
fill the emptiness
of my heart ,
Just need someone to
fill up the empty
mind of mine ,
Just need someone to
pull out the knifes
on my heart...
Just desperate... too desperate !!
i guess...?
Monday, March 15, 2010' 8:34 PM
Holidays?..
Worst thing ever....
lonely sia.... dunnoe wad
to do ... also cannot go out
haiz... sian
So empty inside...listen to my empty heart...
Sunday, March 14, 2010' 8:13 AM
haiz...
damn it .. no
one trusts me now..
even my mum...
wad the hell is wrong
my heart aches...
Felt a knife in my heart... i am not trusted
anymore... i feel so hurt.... deep pain...
Love
is like a show...
there will be climax..
and there will be a
time where it ends...
but... all this words..
seems so unreal...so
not true...doesn't it?
Deep loneliness ... no show but love?
Saturday, March 13, 2010' 6:42 AM
Stayed home
almost the whole
day.... night went out
to bugis with mum & her bf
den went home...
Felt so empty...all alone...
silent cries...
Friday, March 12, 2010' 8:20 PM
be friends?
i am not sure myself...
still i cant forgive myself...
wad to do?...
No more cries , but screams....
just hate myself...
Its over...
When things end,
there will be a new start...
will there...?
Deep down... listen to my silent cries....
Saturday, March 6, 2010' 4:55 AM
today..
nothing much
wake up ...den at
around 2 plus
went to play basketball...
den at around evening
went to eat steamboat
at chinatown there..
the place not very nice
but the food not bad...
:P
then came back use com...
sorry baby....
