Thursday, April 29, 2010' 8:33 AM
Its easy to forgive,
But its never easy to forget....
Yet all i can do is try to forget....
Friday, April 23, 2010' 11:01 PM
Feel like
slapping ur face...
but its ok...
since its over...
sorry for crying out loud
sorry for letting u know my hard times
sorry for sharing my thought with u
sorry for ever wanting u back
sorry for being with u
so is that wad u wanted?
apologizing?
Life will nvr be the same again
Hey...
its not that i
dont dare to say
and look so care free
cause wad i believe is
that wads done is done
and wads over is over
nth will change ...
there are more things
for me to care about and more
things for me to worry about,
i have a mum who is sick
who is now having a stomach cancer
i have a person waiting for me
close by me....... i have my family members
worrying about me....and here i am
trying to not let them worry....
and all u write and say was looking carefree
please...
i nvr wanted to have a broken
family ... wad i can chose meh?
i dont need all of u to
pity me... say i always emo...
really... i am tired of all this...
For Sheralin...
the last thing i wan to say is...
i know is my fault... even if u wanted to
push the blame to me, i have nothing to say bout it
but why do u have to lie?
if u think that wad u have done
is worth it... then i have nth to say
And for the one i hurt most...
i rather u mistook me now...and be happier for
another day then trying to explain to u that all this was
a misunderstanding...but of course i was at
fault too... i just hope to see that smile on ur face
every single day and that would make me feel
better...
Lastly...
my friends , i love you :)
thanks for all the things
u have done.... is not
as if i am going to die or wad
but thanks... :)
When everything comes to an end,
there will be new beginning
Wednesday, April 21, 2010' 3:58 AM
Thought of giving
u a surprise... but instead
u look disappointed...
Firstly
i nvr wanted to
start this conversation
but since i started ...
it also ended...
u say i despo...
i agreed... but i nvr
lied... but u did?
wads the point in
telling me that u sad?
u wan me to an wei ni?
haiz... i say i disappointed...
u say i despo...u say is all my fault...
u dun know where u have gone wrong?
At least , i know my mistake...
Look innocent...?
haha!!
u are fooled !!
4 years of being your toy
and now then i realized that...
Saturday, April 17, 2010' 7:09 AM
Fk...
feel so hurt...
my mum...
just told her that i
was angry about
the class tee-shirt
thingy den she
told me that i was
not going to do anything
successful...
cause i have no patience
i dont get it....
everything i do ...
wheater is it for someone
or not... it will like always
be like a piece of paper...
throwing it away like u wan to...
why would i wan to do something
when the things i do wont
be appreciated?
i guess... i am always a fool
to be toyed around with...
thank u guys....
so much...
Feel so stress... so sad...
but at least now i have got u
Tuesday, April 13, 2010' 7:33 PM
Sort
of a little sick
today...
phone spoil so
alarm did went on...
woke up late so nvr go
sch... jus
feel lonely...
as usual ...
jus
' haiz... '
Dont sad liao la...
Nothing
much today...
jus
" HIAZ.... "
Life is always wad is wish it was....
Monday, April 12, 2010' 4:22 AM
haiz...
always being played
around by people...
just wad the hell is wrong
with my life...
slashed myself...
just seem more useless
Useless... slashing...
Saturday, April 10, 2010' 10:50 PM
Feel
so down...
dunnoe wan to
text u anot...
afraid that u will sad..
den slash urself...
but i was told...
if i dont text u
u will feel worse...
haiz...
i really wish to text u
i am worried...
fuck me up...
Can anyone help me?...
guess not...
If ur
life was like a
movie... i definitely
will delete the part
where i exists...
den all this would
end.. wouldn't it?
Pls stop slashing urself, will u ...
i'm worried...
Nothing
much to post...
i wanted to text u...
but i am afraid...
i guess... that's the
best thing for you...
Inner madness... Silent cries...
Deep cuts...
Friday, April 9, 2010' 8:01 AM
Perhaps
life would be better for
you if i didn't exist in ur life...
i was a joker... joking around ...
with friends... and one day
God played a prank on me
and he said it was all a joke...
haiz... i have played with fire...
and burned myself... and it
hurts alot.... it kills me deep
down... burning away ME slowly and
If God were to erase my
memories ... the last thing
he cant erase will be u in my mind..
but all this typing above makes me sick...
cause its over...
Playing with fire... its HURTS!!
but its all over... Hopes?
Or shall i say NO HOPE!!
Monday, April 5, 2010' 3:11 AM
Asking
me to ignore was the
most hurting thing
i will do... its like the knives
in my heart went down deeper
its hurts a lot
but since u are happier
like this... den its ok...
Haiz.... if that make u happier then so be it
Friday, April 2, 2010' 8:53 AM
i think
is should be the time to
let go... memories...
him...her...wadever...
its finally time?
every time i looked
at u ... u smile at
me as though i have
done nothing wrong
to u ... i dont see the smile
that u use to have...
i hurt u too much...
wad was i thinking anyway...?
